| | i remembered when i used to know this quote that says "everything comes with a price" i guess the happiness in my life too comes with a life,everything that i have right now that makes me really happy and complete comes with a complete price of family troubles.
things with my step dad aint getting really well too,last year around summer time..stuff like this seemed to happened too thats paticularly one reason why i dont let my headphones out of my head whenever he is around,to tell the truth,he just annoys me so much..everything that he said and do is just very overwhelming to me,there was once my grandma and my brother told me that "white people always do something simple and makes it really complicated" and to me i felt that that was exactly true,everything about it was true too..well not all white people are like that but just this paticular one that i live with just kind of makes everything around so simple to make it so complicated,dont get me wrong he is a nice guy..but overall i think that he is just utterly trying too hard to be "my dad" and he should understand that i grew up without one and i would end up without one,with or without him.
to my mom,my step-dad is just making her stress worst and worst day by day,the other night she had just told me that she has chest pains and i honestly say that she should take a vacation for abit,like go back home for a month or two,she has been so stressed that i myself is worried about her..she has alot of things on her mind at the same time too.i sure hope she will break through this stage
she send me an email explaining about rules in the house which she told me everyday which dosent really makes sense to me,cause she knows that i dont bring beer to the room and such,just because there is an empty bottle there dosent mean i drank it all or something eh,and she told me not to stay in the room the whole time and not help clean around the house,the matter of fact is that everytime i clean is swear that my step dad would step in and mess it all up again,i am actually kind of sick and tired of him messing up the house so frequently that i am giving up cleaning the house,but that dosent mean that i would stop cleaning the house dont get me wrong,but he certainly need to learn how to clean up his own shit,justl ike today he walked into my room,pulls the sleeping bag out,and left it on the floor all around while i was standing there looking at him,the funny part is that he could actually smile at me and walked away just like that.
living there for a year now,just explains why my brother cant stand staying at home all the time and try to vent,but i seriously dont blame my mom for being stressed at this state because she carry the weight of the world on her shoulders,but she also have to know that i have something called a life and something called schedules as i dont have any free time at all due to everything that i am doing.
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